Waking up before the huge white throne in the Heavenly courtroom…...

God was ‘surprised’ about the ones who came in the courtroom without being called. 
It happens a lot more the last years. 
He called nobody in to justify themselves. 
The festschrift was closed before His face. 
That book, where He wrote down what all people did: the good and the evil. 
Remarkable that those two couples came by themselves… they had willingly robbed themselves of life. 
There they stood, completely surprised, at the threshold of the Heavenly courtroom.
They didn't want to come in, but were pushed by an invisible power towards the huge white throne.

They had discussed it so carefully with each other. There was no God, so they did not have to justify their lives.Their children and family were witnesses of the fact that they had searched everything with the greatest care. They decided to do it with the four of them, because it is still very scary than when you kill yourself and with each other you dare more. And there they stood, in utter confusion. They wanted to run away, and hide themselves from the shining Majesty, the intense holiness and the avenging righteousness from God. They screamed to the mountains: 'Fall down on us' and asked the hills: 'Cover us from the wrath of the Lamb on the throne'.